Good Morning

Colston is doing great this morning. Actually, almost a little too great if you can imagine that. 

He is fighting the ventilator and breathing on his own which is good but his blood pressure numbers and some other numbers aren't quite where they should be for them to take the breathing tube out. They had to sedate him to keep him from moving so much until his numbers match. 

When I woke up at 3 this morning the nurse had put socks on his hands and clipped them to the side and she literally said, "yeah he was trying to take the breathing tube out on his own."

That's my stubborn boy. 

A woman in one of my mommy groups had started a discussion asking us who our role models and inspirations are. I think you know who mine is.

Mr. Colston James Krische.

You, little boy, are the most inspiring person and I thank God everyday that he blessed me to be your mommy. 

You have taught me just how precious and short life is. You have taught me to love deeper than I ever thought I could and you have brought your daddy and I closer than ever. 

You have taught me that even though our situation is difficult, it doesn't invalidate the struggles that others go through even if they seem minor in comparison. 

Most importantly, you and all these other babies we see in the hospital right now, have taught me to be a more compassionate human being. You have taught me that everyone has their own set of struggles and that there will always be people that have it better than us and there will always be people that have it worse than us. We need to be thankful and happy with where WE are right now because this is exactly where God needs us to be right now.